Rediscovering Myself

First of all, Happy New Year to all my readers, 2009 was quite a blast, isn’t it? It’ll be end of the world in 3 more years. What are your future plans? (brainwashed by 2012 movie, lol)

Personally, I think end of the year is good for self-reflection. What did you achieve last year? What are the most memorable events that happened to you? Any life changing ones?

I do.

I decided to stop my Masters studies (completed half) and start on a brand new adventure. Dare myself to follow my passion despite all the bias. I have nothing to lose. I am young and dare to fail. No one can stop me.

And I decided to return to Malaysia, for time being. Before moving to another state/country again, I need to spend time with family. I had been away from home for more than 5 years. It’s about time to go back and start another chapter of my life.

The only thing that I will definitely miss when I return Malaysia – the freedom. Occasionally, the internet speed ^^; Luckily I don’t download movies or music as much as I used to, or else it’ll be pain in the ass.

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Do you have new goals for 2010? New plans for new chapter? Life is unpredictable and if fucks you hard when you least expect it. I have plans, many plans. But plans are merely only plans if there are no actions. I have listed down things I want to do and goals to achieve, in concise manner. Have you planned yours yet? Here are mine.

Passion

Past few months I have been trying to figure out what I am suppose to do with my life. I have not found the absolute answers yet, but one thing that caught my serious attention – I want to make living through internet, either physical products, information products, expertise or consultation service, I want to give it a try. Internet is only 15 years old and I still have lots to explore.

I am not joining the 9-5 workforce, also known as the “Rat Race”. It’s fun to work with colleagues, especially if you’re surrounded with hot office ladies. However, ultimately you’re working for someone, not for yourself. I don’t like the idea of spending my time for others. I rather invest time and effort for myself.

Income

Like I mentioned above, I wanted to make my living through internet. Past 3 months I’ve invested a lot of time and effort in conquering the steep learning curve. It’s not easy to make money because the barrier of entry is so low that everyone is trying to do the same. But there are definitely chances to succeed.

So far I am only making hundreds of ringgit a month.. I hope to reach USD$1,000 each month by the end of 2010, and leverage from that point. I have witness successful case and I am pretty confident I am capable to do this as well.

Physical Fitness

I am no longer forcing myself to do sports. I do sports automatically whenever I felt like it, and I hope to be the same in 2010, except adding more to the routine. Swimming is the most frequent sport in 2009, and I want to keep it that way. Probably add another resistant sport such as boxing, karate or maybe taichi. Weight-lifting is too bored, bleh.

Mental

Being optimistic is one of my strength, yet my weakness. I can bet on “0” on roulette for hundreds of times with high hopes in every bet. This is only a case example, and happened before. Another example is, I can leave all the shit until last minute, and I say “everything will be fine”. One more example, I write an article for my blog, and without proper marketing and promotion, I naively thought the visitors will find me automatically because I poured my efforts. I hope my excessive opportunist behaviour can be utilized in better situation.

I hope to acquire knowledge and wisdom, in whichever life path I take. Knowledge is never enough. A Chinese proverb once said “You keep learning until the day you die 活到老，学到老”. Period.

Besides that, books are another source of inspiration and motivation. I like to read biographies and lessons from persons who personally had that problem, mentors who actually walk the walk, not talk the walk. Learn from others’ mistake. I am proud to say that I’ve read 28 books in 2009, favourite ones include Seth Godin, Darren Rowse, Tim Ferriss, Yaro Starak, Richard Brandson and Neil Strauss (ahem)

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2010 just arrived, good reason for another new start aye? I am lazy to continue. My beer is freezing cold, perfect condition to consume. 12 days left to enjoy my Tooheys.. *sigh*

Happy New Year to all of you!

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I brushed teeth, cleaned my face, and 100% mentality prepared to go to bed at 2am.. my stomach suddenly “gulu gulu gulu”…

….. shit.

I lay down on bed and shout “tiu-nia-sing…….. HUNGRY AHHHH”.

Jerry stand up from his computer… and said:

I refused him. Inside my head, I keep fighting the image of juicy chicken bacon burger with salty, crunchy fries.

Finally, after long period of struggle (two minutes). I lost.

“I go grab my wallet” I said.

I am glad my dad did not buy a car for me. I would have been 150kg if I have my own transport.

My will power is the weakest before going to bed. Do you have similar experience?

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Warning: This is a long post (600+ words)- make yourself a coffee before continue reading

I have been suffering a condition of excess sweat, especially at palm and feet. In medical field, this symptom is usually known as Hyperhidrosis.

Hyperhidrosis is the condition characterized by abnormally increased perspiration, in excess of that required for regulation of body temperature – Wikipedia

According to a newspaper, this symptom occurred in 1 out of 100 people. It’s not infectious. But it is indeed troublesome. Let me tell you why.

I cannot do certain sports

Due to the sweaty palms, the sweat could hinders the performance of certain tasks, definitely affect the outcome of the sport. For example, bowling. I need to hold 15lbs of bowling ball and roll it at matters of split second. Palm sweats has reduce the grip significantly, resulting in lousy scores. (Pakker Boon, my hook definitely win yours if I don’t have sweaty palms!) Why not dry it before every shot? It’s impossible – the sweat will come out immediately.

Embarrass to shake hand

I prefer not to shake hand, honestly. How can you shake others’ hand when your hand is sweating like mad? I personally think it’s not a good manner. I’d prefer to jokingly say “hahaha I don’t want~ bleh” or be honest with them about the sweaty palm (especially to elders). IF I say this to girl, they show the “eewwww” reaction

Touch me, baby

ARGHHH I CANNOT TOUCH GIRLS AHHHHHHHHHH!! Not in a formal way, of course. You need some mad skillz to hold a girl’s hand when you’re sweating I know 80% guys out there surely get sweaty palm when you are about to hold a girl’s hand. Hahahhaha. Especially my hand… I can flood a whole room.

Extra tissues

I would keep wiping my palm with tissues during exam. On top of that, I wrap a piece of tissue on the pen, so I won’t drip my sweat on the exam sheet. I have to replace the tissue every 3-5 minutes! no bull.

Lately this symptom has become severe, I’ve opted for handkerchief instead of tissues. I am environmental friendly person, you see The only downside is, I need to wash 4-6 handkerchief every week. But solves the short term, but not long term.

Are there any solutions?

I am embarrass to say this… I never look for any solutions besides buying more tissues -_- I thought the only solution is to have surgery, and problem solved! External medication never crossed my mind.

I search for solutions online, came up with a product called Drysol and Hypercare. Unable to buy these in local pharmacy store. I approach a friend who is studying in pharmaceutical field – Rachel Liew! She said “try Driclor, see if it works. If not, you go do surgery lah muahahhahah”. -__-”

I purchased Driclor next day. The instruction written “apply before sleep; need few days to see result. stop when palm stops sweating, reapply 1-2 times per week” something like that lah.

How was the result?

Guess what? It works!! My hand stopped sweating for a day! But it starts to sweat again during late evening I think I need to reapply few more times until my hand stops sweating completely. Surgery is definitely my last resort.

So far I’ve been very satisfied with the result. Tonight will be my 5th night applying. I shall blog about this matter again in 2-3 weeks time.. plus if I remember.

P/S: This entry looks like advertorial.. hahahha. I am qualified to do one now. Anyone want to pay me to review their products? >:D

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