I’ve just arrived at my own home town, Kota Kinabalu, Sabah. Feels damn good to be close to family, and to be home. I am missing Brisbane already.

Especially the freezing cold beers.

However, after touching down for few hours. I felt hostile, more hostile than ever – all illegal immigrant’s child has grown to teen, and they tend to be more rebellious, especially at their current age, causing troubles to society.

I officially declare KK is not safe place. Not safe to walk alone, not even in public places. Unless you have a gun on your hand, a lastik in your pocket, or really really huge eye balls that can shoot lasers.

Kota Kinabalu has changed considerably since I left for studies. Here’s my thought.

Road traffic increased. There are damn many cars on the road due to easy loan schemes from local car producers. I bet you can see one Myvi in every five cars (definitely got one with loud exhaust, very cool one) Probably will be my first car I ever purchase when I can support financially. Just maybe. Without the vroom vroom exhaust.

Malaysia’s food price are a lot cheaper compared to Australia’s, one of the biggest factor is the currency. However, Sabah is one of the state where everything is more expensive than other states. A normal bowl of noodle costs RM7, compare to RM4-RM5 at West Malaysia. Damn, no wonder we’re so poor.

I am more conscience with my expenses since I am not receiving allowance from parents anymore (should have started saving earlier, heh). I became a frugal person as far as I am aware of. Each purchases are put into considerations. I struggles between “needs” and “wants”.

Haven’t hang out with any friends since the day I return.

Honestly, I am not ready for that yet. So many things I want to settle before I resume my social life.. yum cha, night life, sports and etc. I have a new set of goals before I return from Australia, and I want to focus on that mindset for time being before getting distracted.

Now you know my intentions of not going out. Don’t give up calling me just yet! I love getting calls from you guys.. hehehe. The best part is when I reject.. “noloh… I am not going out loh…”

HAHAHAHAHAH

My camera has been in hibernate mode for two weeks.

Maybe is because of the thought that ahbing.com is closing down, I lost the enthusiasm in personal blogging. This thought crossed my mind for many times. I am moving on to something bigger, hopefully more successful. Personal blogging used to be fun, but it felts like a task, or routine, whichever comes first. I don’t like it.

I still have many pending posts.. all of ‘em at months overdue. Forgot most of the posts details but you will definitely enjoy reading those entries

I went to a few shopping malls, alone.

Main purpose is to survey the quality of local pretty girls. Man, I am disappointed! Where are all the pretty girls ha? Why hide at home? Come out leh! I got so angry that I accidentally bought newest iMac. I almost bought another one for my sister too. My dad got so upset with local pretty girls too so he gave me the green light to purchase one for me.

Yes. I bought an iMac.

No, the part about my dad was just a joke.

It’s easy to impress my mum with new gadget. We played Photo Booth.

My mum said she loves my computer. Hehehe. My mum looks like 20 years older while I became Frankenstein or some sort.. a bald Frankenstein. I love my mum cause she’s so noisy

Yet to master the new beast, going to spend more time personalizing and learn the shortcuts. I shall give my iMac a name. Any ideas?

I personally felt that Kota Kinabalu does not feel the same to me anymore.

During my study breaks, I always come back with excitements and plans. Catch up with friends, unlimited “to-do” list, ever lasting yum cha sessions and more. I wake up every morning with excitement, “WOW today is another busy day”. I am not feeling this anymore. As if I have all the time I want, and do whatever I want as long as I still can survive with my own savings. Or is it because everyone has started with their journey, and I only started to depart my own journey, leaving behind and feeling lonely?

Walao I don’t even understand what I was typing on previous paragraphy.. if you understand what I am trying to say, give me a call 016-8158886 and we go out for a date. If you have gugujiao, don’t bother. My mum will flying kick you. She desperate for a grandchild now.

I consider this a ranting post. If you read from top to bottom, I thank you for your patience. This entry seems like written by a long-winded old geezer.. man, I am only 25 this year! Some of you would definitely say “WOIII you’re only 25 and you complain! I am XX years old and [..insert the rest]”

HAHHAHAHAHAH

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First of all, Happy New Year to all my readers, 2009 was quite a blast, isn’t it? It’ll be end of the world in 3 more years. What are your future plans? (brainwashed by 2012 movie, lol)

Personally, I think end of the year is good for self-reflection. What did you achieve last year? What are the most memorable events that happened to you? Any life changing ones?

I do.

I decided to stop my Masters studies (completed half) and start on a brand new adventure. Dare myself to follow my passion despite all the bias. I have nothing to lose. I am young and dare to fail. No one can stop me.

And I decided to return to Malaysia, for time being. Before moving to another state/country again, I need to spend time with family. I had been away from home for more than 5 years. It’s about time to go back and start another chapter of my life.

The only thing that I will definitely miss when I return Malaysia – the freedom. Occasionally, the internet speed ^^; Luckily I don’t download movies or music as much as I used to, or else it’ll be pain in the ass.

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Do you have new goals for 2010? New plans for new chapter? Life is unpredictable and if fucks you hard when you least expect it. I have plans, many plans. But plans are merely only plans if there are no actions. I have listed down things I want to do and goals to achieve, in concise manner. Have you planned yours yet? Here are mine.

Passion

Past few months I have been trying to figure out what I am suppose to do with my life. I have not found the absolute answers yet, but one thing that caught my serious attention – I want to make living through internet, either physical products, information products, expertise or consultation service, I want to give it a try. Internet is only 15 years old and I still have lots to explore.

I am not joining the 9-5 workforce, also known as the “Rat Race”. It’s fun to work with colleagues, especially if you’re surrounded with hot office ladies. However, ultimately you’re working for someone, not for yourself. I don’t like the idea of spending my time for others. I rather invest time and effort for myself.

Income

Like I mentioned above, I wanted to make my living through internet. Past 3 months I’ve invested a lot of time and effort in conquering the steep learning curve. It’s not easy to make money because the barrier of entry is so low that everyone is trying to do the same. But there are definitely chances to succeed.

So far I am only making hundreds of ringgit a month.. I hope to reach USD$1,000 each month by the end of 2010, and leverage from that point. I have witness successful case and I am pretty confident I am capable to do this as well.

Physical Fitness

I am no longer forcing myself to do sports. I do sports automatically whenever I felt like it, and I hope to be the same in 2010, except adding more to the routine. Swimming is the most frequent sport in 2009, and I want to keep it that way. Probably add another resistant sport such as boxing, karate or maybe taichi. Weight-lifting is too bored, bleh.

Mental

Being optimistic is one of my strength, yet my weakness. I can bet on “0” on roulette for hundreds of times with high hopes in every bet. This is only a case example, and happened before. Another example is, I can leave all the shit until last minute, and I say “everything will be fine”. One more example, I write an article for my blog, and without proper marketing and promotion, I naively thought the visitors will find me automatically because I poured my efforts. I hope my excessive opportunist behaviour can be utilized in better situation.

I hope to acquire knowledge and wisdom, in whichever life path I take. Knowledge is never enough. A Chinese proverb once said “You keep learning until the day you die 活到老，学到老”. Period.

Besides that, books are another source of inspiration and motivation. I like to read biographies and lessons from persons who personally had that problem, mentors who actually walk the walk, not talk the walk. Learn from others’ mistake. I am proud to say that I’ve read 28 books in 2009, favourite ones include Seth Godin, Darren Rowse, Tim Ferriss, Yaro Starak, Richard Brandson and Neil Strauss (ahem)

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2010 just arrived, good reason for another new start aye? I am lazy to continue. My beer is freezing cold, perfect condition to consume. 12 days left to enjoy my Tooheys.. *sigh*

Happy New Year to all of you!

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